Why I Hate the Color Yellow

 

Tonight, we celebrated Labor Day with a luau party at our church. As I prepared for the festivities, I chose yellow tablecloths. No big deal, you may think. But any of my friends know that I really dislike the color yellow. It all goes back quite a few years to when my son had appendicitis. I rushed him to the doctor after he was in so much pain that he couldn't walk. When we got to the waiting room, I knew I had to take action to make sure he was seen quickly since the waiting room was crowded, and his pain was increasing. He had vomited so much that only bile was coming up, so inspiration hit. I gave him a clear Ziploc bag and told him to throw up in that bag. It took one time in the very crowded waiting room for the staff to rush him back before a chain reaction could begin. He had his appendix taken out within two hours, but my lasting dislike of yellow still exists. All I see is the Ziploc bag of bile. This brings me to my point. Our past experiences affect our lives. You may think that if you push down trauma, it'll go away. This does not happen. Our bodies need to process those very real emotions of fear, sadness, grief, and anger. When we force them down, they pop up in other ways. It may be irrational fears or anxiety. It you may find yourself avoiding, like I do with anything yellow. However, none of these things get to the root of the problem. They are temporary bandaids on a festering wound. Eventually, even our health and mental health become affected by our past wounds. However, when we dig deep into our past trauma, to the very root, we can deal with the emotions that formed our lives, even when we didn't realize it. As we process real emotions, forgive ourselves, and accept the unconditional love of our heavenly Father, we begin to heal. Whether it's forgiving a wrong done to us or learning to trust again, we heal. If you find yourself dealing with pain that just won't go away, I encourage you to speak to someone who can guide you through processing your past trauma. Let God and others help you find the root and help you move toward healing.

Have a great week high-heeled warriors!